I decided to not have a surgery straight away as was recommended but instead to try alternative methods of healing.
After the initial shock wore off around the end of February I started on the Medical Medium protocol.
I did 3 rounds of the original MM 3:6:9 cleanses and one 3:6:9 advanced in two months, alongside lots of energy and emotion release practices and meditations.
Following an appointment with my functional medicine doctor, Dr. Miles Reid, As per his advice I also implemented a deep recapitulation practice.
In the beginning of May I got a check up including biopsies and the results came back normal! Followed by further smear test in November which was also negative!
No sign of the HPV I was originally diagnosed with either.
In under three months, this did seem like a real miracle.
My partner joined me in the MM protocol and healed a year long Covid symptoms in just three months.
A huge thank you to the MM and Spirit Of Compassion for their undying support. Forever grateful!
I love supporting women who are going through similar diagnosis and experiences.
Remember that your choice matters and whatever decision you make, it's valid.
I'm here to give you hope that you have a choice, and you can heal regardless.
Twenty years ago, I’d reached a level in my practice where I was lucid dreaming near every night having OBE’s and having others witness acts of power.
Being a teacher of Yoga and Sorcery Passes, people started asking me to to teach them lucid dreaming and OBE.
Some of my students excelled at dreaming by applying the practices of Carlos Castaneda, others though they were extraordinary practitioners didn’t. I started researching techniques from La Berge, Monroe and others that were investigating this work.
I considered my own experience. I had gone from not dreaming, to regularly dreaming lucidly, simply by sitting in silence practice and doing Passes.
When I was 16, I was living on the street, mostly though I’d be partying all night at other people’s places, so it was never a particular hardship.
I got arrested for smoking pot and possessing LSD and was sentenced to 3 months in a detention centre. I went from living a free life, hanging out with the psychedelic scene, to a harsh army style regime. Many inmates went to bed crying and woke up crying. Soon after they banned these camps with their short, sharp shock.
The days were long and arduous. Parade at 5am, work and army style training until sixpm , with draconian punishments for poor performance. There was no smoking. For inmates talk was banned, only allowed after meals in the evening for half an hour. I was exhausted.
I woke from my bed, feeling energised. I looked down and there was my body lying in bed. In jail people always repeat the aphorism “you can’t imprison a free man.” I laughed, it was true.
I intended being outside the bars and I was, looking into the cell from outside, gazing at my body. I was hugely excited, I rose into the air and hovered over the fence. The camp looked like any prison camp from a war movie and was originally built for that purpose. Watchtowers were all around.
I decided to go and see my girlfriend. I hovered in the air and rose beyond the fence. I was free. Amazingly the camp was in a beautiful location. It was stunning flying over the English countryside, over forests, meadows and rivers.
I knew my girlfriend’s house and passed through the window, into her bedroom. She was asleep in bed. I attempted to wake her but although I looked solid to myself I was unable to interact with her physically.
I gazed at her a long time and attempted many manoeuvres to communicate with her, though seemingly to no avail.
I considered my options, I didn’t want to return to the detention centre but I came to the conclusion I would have to. I said goodbye to my girlfriend.
It was exhilarating flying back, I felt empowered by my decision to return. It was strange though coming up the valley and seeing the camp. I flew over the fence and stood outside my cell, gazing through the bars to my sleeping body. I passed through the wall, took a last look at my sleeping body and merged with it.
A few days later I got a letter from my girlfriend. She wrote that she experienced a dream that was not a dream. I had come into her bedroom at night and attempted to wake her. She witnessed my attempts to communicate with her.
The one thing that struck me when I was considering ways of empowering others to lucid dream, was that the main periods of my life when I had OBE’s and lucid dreams were when I had started acting in new ways.
In jail this had been through going from a leisurely lifestyle, to a military style environment. Other times had been through embarking on unusual endeavours or trainings. New actions especially those that go beyond the social contract, empower and enhance awareness.
Key I realised was not-doing. Not doings is both a term used for series of movements and for unusual activities with an intent to interrupt habitual behaviour.
I started experimenting to empower my own dreaming through not-doings and in my dream classes and workshops, I began to include series of Not-Doings and activities, like walking backwards or blindfolded.
Carlos told us that all of the Not-Doings had a Code to them, a special activation by rearranging the order of the Passes in conjunction with other movements. At the end of Carlos life he taught The Code to one of the Not-Doing series called On the Run.
I was empowered to teach the Seers Code and have included it in many trainings since. Eventually, demand got me to offer it as an online course. It has been very successfully received and the feedback has been wonderful.
Although the course has a value of hundreds of pounds, it is a course that will set you up for life, during lockdown we have offered the course by donation. From the 21st of June this offer will finish.
Take advantage of this offer. You will receive many benefits. Consciously living and taking responsibility for your life is empowering.
Sleep is the cousin of death, we can be unconscious, neither lucid or remembering our dreams or we can use our dreams to be lucid and travel in spirit worlds, to hone our awareness.
If you aspire to a conscious death, lead a conscious life. The Seers Code will serve you well in your endeavour.
It was many decades ago that I was locked in a house for a weekend by mistake and found a Carlos Castaneda book. Since then I’ve practised what Carlos suggested. I was attracted to the books, in making sense of non-ordinary experiences.
This path has conferred many benefits on me, it has also made me aware of the presumptions, assumptions, conceits, arrogance and lack of sobriety that were my lot. They have been my challenges. Overcoming them is the dawning of power and the energy body becoming available.
My friend had asked me to house sit. It was an elegant apartment with a balcony and many plants. She wanted me to water her plants and generally take care of the place. She asked me to sleep in her daughters bedroom.
The bed was low and soft, a small room with a high ceiling and a door to the corridor with a window above it.
Unusually I couldn’t sleep. I sat in silence practice, lay down but sleep eluded me. I made a tea, read a book, lay down tossed and turned, returned to practice, then a few Passes, back to reading but no sleep.
Tired but reading, something caught my eye, from the window above the door. The eye of a cyclops gazed down on me. I wasn’t reactive, I made no gesture, my mood was languid I gazed back.
The head went from the window, I saw the knob of the door turn and then the opening of the door. A giant being looking like an ogre bent down. It’s body was the strangest shape, it’s appearance a conjuration from fairy tales. It moved further into the room, appraising me.
I was amazed, many years of dreaming allowed me to silently appraise the being without resorting to panic. I didn’t question my mood, I was silent, I didn’t think to do a pass or change my breathing or posture. I was sat up in bed leaning on an inadequate pillow, the duvet pulled to my waist with the book in my hands.
I must have dozed off, I opened my eyes, there in the room was a pale orange glowing tube. It was a restful colour and again I felt little trepidation. I could feel though a distinct communion with the being and a feeling as if we were old acquaintances.
For seemingly hours again I communed with this archaic energy. My eyes must have closed for soon I found myself dreaming and started my exercises for lucidity.
These days it is common for people to talk of having spirit guides, allies etc. It is not that I doubt them, we all have helpers and detractors on every level, however claiming them as an ally in the way Don Juan did, had very specific procedures. Him and Genaro both wore gourds, that they had carved and enticed the allies into. These gourds once accepted were taken into the allies world and had no form in the daily world, just a shadowy presence.
What are your experiences? What challenges have you faced to attaining clarity and power. How has this helped in facing old age and death?
What experiences have you had with meeting, spirit beings, IB’s and scouts? Have you an ally, what procedures did you use to make them your ally. Are you able to use them to perform wonders in the world that are beyond your usual abilities?
There is power and by this we are powerful
Our fame and name is of this power
We travel beyond the peaks
We continue on our way
We overcome all difficulties with ease
Our concerns are not of the world
Yet we are rich in her bounties
With dignity and respect we thank her
And give of our affection
In our hearts we glory
Her glory a protection
Centred there is stillness
A calm in the eye of the storm
The way of contemplation
Reveals the steps for our feet
Transforming fear to direction
From the dictates of fate
We extract our destiny
Whirl through dreams
As stars through the cosmos
Immersed in silent darkness
by Gammadian Freeman
Love is sacred. Love is real. Love is truth. Love is where majesty meets awe, and succumbs to itself.
Love is undiluted essence. You were formed of love and love is the bridge to who you are.
Love is a wormhole to the stars and beyond. Love has called you and you have responded in accepting and growing in your physicality.
Love has had a joke with you. Behind the veil of physicality is your nature waiting for it's own embrace.
Love does not stint. Love is inclusive and expansive. Shake of any fear and lethargy, that would have you act differently.
Creature of love this moment is yours. Feel and practice love. This is all.
Here is no need to search for what you already have.
Open your heart. It is the treasure house of your being.
Hosting the orgasmic workshop in two continents, over the past 2.5 years, we're having some exciting insights and perspectives on what makes people want to explore their sexuality deeper.
It's useful to mention that 95% of all participants have never experienced an orgasm with the whole body. Since our beginners workshop teaches you how to experience a full body orgasm that is to be expected.
Following these trends in the people we attract helps us become better teachers, and bring more value in our client's lives. We have sifted the top 5 reasons that come up the most:
1. Reason number one is mostly mentioned by women. They want to be more inside their own body or less in the head during the sexual experience. Even when it comes to just feeling sexy, and attractive, or flirting, a lot of women just can't disconnect from the constant inner chatter, so they can enjoy the moment, be fully present, and feel powerfully inside their bodies.
2. Number 2 is a reason most men share. They want to be able to better and more fully satisfy their female partners. One of the biggest obstacles here can be, but not always, premature ejaculation. I am really impressed by men's desire to be better and more confident lovers to their partners. Confidence is sexy, right?
3. Then comes a reason equally shared by males and females. This is pure curiosity. Wanting to learn more about their own sexuality and how they can have a more fulfilling sex life. Sometimes we get some really eager to learn individuals who want to take it further, and they want to know the next step, and the next step.
4. Number 4 is the desire to solve a particular challenge they are facing in their intimate relationship. They join in a workshop they hope is going to give them guidance or even a direct solution to their problem. This has happened actually but it's very individual based.
5. Quite often we hear that someone is at the workshop because their partner surprised them with it. They literally found out they were going to an orgasmic workshop 10 min before they walked through the door! Now that's exciting! Fortunately, so far every surprised in this way partner has taken it really well and totally enjoyed their experience.
If you resonate with any of these reasons, check our online workshop - Full Body Orgasm Made Easy - launching on 8th March 2019. You can join our beta test group now and be one of the people to shape it up in the best course teaching men and women how to explode with full body orgasms.
Gammadian and I love what we do, and we do what we love. Being able to guide clients in the realms of energy, sexuality and dream work is a calling and a dream come true for us.
Following your excitement and passion is easier when you are expressing your sexuality freely.
So the question to you stands, have YOU experienced a full body orgasm yet?
Accept yourself. Until we accept ourselves, how can we love ourselves? In acceptance that mystery that is love is revealed.
Love comes in many hues, welcome them all.
In bars and forums they argue about love, whilst the children and wise ones, simply smile.
Enlightenment is simple acceptance of what is.
Your judgements of your self and others, do not help you excel. You see the beauty of the tree, or the jaguar, of nature, yet you deny your own beauty.
Do not listen to those voices of fear and self-importance, that compare. You are incomparable. You are unique. That is simply how it is.
Simply enjoy, relax, feel this unique moment that is arising and descending. A moment, a gift just for you.
Unearth that jewel of being within you. You will see yourself and others in a new light, that accents their wonder.
What we do very well is appreciating. Have you noticed, when we appreciate we feel very good.
Appreciation isn't saying "thank you" rather it is an energetic digestion of the world. Appreciating is feeling our existence in its fullness.
A spiritual practice is not given as an end in itself, practice is so that we can fully show up for this life. It is simplicity.
When you eat, smell the food, feast your eyes on it, let the taste buds dance. Enjoyment is the best thank you.
Acknowledge Sun Moon and Earth who have come together with human energy, to bring this to your plate. Feast as if it were your first and last moment.
Every human activity is transformed by conscious appreciation and feeling.
It is difficult for most of us to sit in a cave in the Himalayas, or whatever our concept is of spiritual practice. We can though feel our feet on the Earth. Our breath can be a rhapsody of delight rather than than an unconscious factor.
Appreciation like a muscle is strengthened and works better through exercise.
There is much in this garden of life. What isn't used and maintained gives way to atrophy and entropy.
This is your time. The harvest is here, the best time to gather
Carlos Castaneda relayed the concept of The Wheel of Time to us.
What is The Wheel of Time and what are it’s furrows of existence? Silence and Dreaming have given me a take on that, which I’d like to share.
Simply put there are imperatives that compel us in one way of living.
It is like a groove, a furrow that we follow through time. We can say it is genetic inheritance and a training usually within that inheritance.
Nature by default grows beings and their lives in what can be called a furrow or groove. We know the phrase that fruit doesn’t fall far from the tree.
Yet humans are strange creatures, largely in our infancy. We are at a time of great change and possibilities that have been realised by sages, throughout our history, these are now realisable by us all.
We have reason, and our reason is becoming exercised. Our lives are not so hard. We have more leisure, more tools to assist us.
Humans are beginning to examine their perceptions, their emotions, their feelings.
We are beginning to be able to separate reason from emotion and feeling.
Many are beginning to understand how they are creating the realities of their lives. Many are becoming conscious of untapped facets of their nature.
Through exploration, we find Will, Unbending Intent. A force that is both responsible for us being here and is at our service.
This is why service has always been seen and spoken of as the fastest way to evolve. It is one of the universe’s deepest secrets.
We are trapped within the Wheel of Time by our learned, habitual behaviour.
This is why fluidity, adaptability is looked on by many as one of our best characteristics for change.
Carlos gave us physical exercises, that he called Not Doings, that had as their Intent to interrupt our habitual behaviour.
One of these was The Wheel of Time. The perceptual fluidity to accept the gift of the age, requires doing new things.
If we can grab the Wheel of Time and turn it to a new furrow, by cultivating new thought, feelings, intents and actions then we catapult ourselves into a new existence.
This is a movement of perception, or as Carlos would say, the assemblage point, where perception is assembled, to another place.
We have linear concepts, that allows us to perceive Time as past, present and future. This is something though that is created with that linear awareness. We are t more than that linear awareness.
Time is incalculable in its immensity, a thought of the universe, an intensity beyond the linear.
Carlos said Time is Intent or elastic to its own intensity. What can that mean for us?
Through Silence and Dreaming, we begin to align with the force that is Time and understand that Time doesn’t move, it is like Space, we move through it, or at least have the sensation of doing so.
Both Silence and Dreaming are the door to fluidity to exercise the facets of our awareness, hidden to us by our habituation to the past.
Conscious Dreamers come to the knowledge of other furrows of existence that they operate in and the immensity that these furrows reflect.
It can be very daunting, coming into a Dream where everyone knows you, whilst you have only a vague recollection of them.
Yet experienced Dreamers know they occupy several furrows of existence and that their nature is pristine, in that it is untouched by these furrows.
In these different timelines for many the common powers of lucid dreaming, like flying etc rescind, just as they do in daily life.
However there are those Dreamers that have gone beyond, the individual criteria for all realms, They keep these powers.
This is the education many of us are receiving at the moment.
The Universe is full of undreamed possibilities. Life Dreams them in the Wheel of Time.
These possibilities always exist, they are claimed for us by our attention.
We have reached a nexus point in Time.
Is it to be extinction for us or an understanding of our nature beyond the confines of fear?
Life holds the possibility of inconceivable transformation for us.
Balance your fear and awe at existence.
Steady yourself. Grab the Wheel of Time and turn it.
This Wheel is lubricated by Intent itself.
Now is the Time of Its turning.
You know nothing by being told. This holds true even if the writer or speaker has accurate information.
Whatever information you might learn about India, the reality of India can only be realised by going there.
In this age of communication and ideas, much of the information especially in media is speculation, inaccurate or written by people that have their own agendas.
All paths have an outer and inner layer. The purpose of the outer layer, is to gather and order our perception of our world. So that we can approach that inner layer and experience it.
This process assuages our fear so that we can act. Its as if we were forging a coin of everything we have identified and through doing so develop the courage to gamble on that which is beyond our description, or even of describing.
Our mythology around death, has us paying the ferryman with a coin to cross the river of death, the river Styx.
Close your eyes, breathe, enter into that forge that is inside you and mint that coin of freedom, from all that calls your attention away.
Enter the volcano of your being, what is real will never be destroyed.