I like to share a story with you about recapitulation and dreaming. After meeting and becoming the Energy Body, I began to take a pivotal role in the Castaneda community, putting on workshops with the apprentices of Carlos Castaneda and other bodies and my own workshops all over the world on various topics to do with Toltec Knowledge. Of these the recapitulation retreats became my favourite because of an incredible experience I had.

A large amount of my time was devoted both to Sorcery Passes, Stalking and Dreaming. Still though in my stalking of my childhood I was only finding acrimonious scenes. Me being beaten for what I'd done or hadn't done. I'd constantly run away all my life but at 16 left for good.

I decided to gather a weekly group and make recapitulation our endeavour. Over and over I pulled 

He asked me what was happening, he said "I am ill, something has happened. He'd actually died in a lot of pain from a stroke.. I told him who I was and that he was dead and that he should head toward a thin band of light on the horizon above. I told him I would return.
I also went speedily towards like dawn's light. It was some kind of heaven, but I wasn't taking much notice as I wanted to find my mother. I finally came out into this beautiful serene place. My mother was lying there with her eyes closed, bathed in a luminescence.

She looked so at peace, but I was so pissed at her. I asked her why I'd had to spend so much of my childhood black and blue just because I was energetic and wild? "What made you think you had the right to beat me, often for things my sisters did?" She became awake but had no concern for my feelings.

I became highly irate and changed into a bear. I roared at her. I grabbed her from her repose and tore at her body. I ripped her apart. Yet she reformed into her peaceful repose. Many times I roared and clawed until she was no more but I couldn't destroy her.

She said to me "your concerns are no longer mine, I have made my peace with my actions. I recommend you do the same thing."

"Maybe you have no Earthly concerns but your husband who you swore undying love for is in a terrible state in a realm below. I am not sure how to bring him here." I said.

"It will be done, together we will bring him. Return to where he is and escort him I will lend assistance."

Instead of my recapitulation being an arduous task, I was recapitulating these incredible beings from my life that had been disguised by the roles I had hastily assigned them out of protection.

​I saw the play of intents and the thread of energy that I had followed  throughout my life

The recapitulation is a technique discovered by the sorcerers of ancient Mexico, to view and relive all the experiences of their lives, to achieve two transformational and pragmatic goals.

Firstly, to become detached and light about their lives, so that they would not lose their individual awareness at death and secondly, to gain perceptual fluidity.

These men saw that at death a force that had lent awareness retrieved it and that men lost their individual awareness in the process. They also saw that this force didn't require the life force of the individual, but his life experience. In man these two had become so entwined that by default man lost both. 

His reply was that if they felt they were unable to do a perfect recapitulation then they should do a shitty one. Those that attempted this practice found immediate and accumulative benefit.

An immediate realisation was the repetitive habitual way they lived their lives that robbed them of the immediacy it had once had, giving them a new-found zest for life. The recapitulation opened a pragmatic way of thinking and a more strategic approach to living life. Old habits disappeared and seemed irrelevant.

Energy levels increased and chronic patterns of thought that resulted in mental and physical ailments and pain, gave way to increased health. New perspectives and possibilities opened up. Many practitioners started new courses of study, work and hobbies.
Ena and Gammadian have used this practice to great effect in their lives. ​

Modern students of this practice have worked out efficient and effective ways of tackling this process. These techniques will be available to you. ​

You will engage with those aspects of your life that are relevant to you and your concerns, family, relationships, work and prosperity etc. 

I become less careless and more carefree about my life.

We invite you to share in this online course and deepen your experience of who you are and how you  want to live. 

‘’I was walking along the road in Kensington, it was evening yet I had no sense of continuity. I had so much energy and clarity; I knew I was dreaming, not sure whether I was awake or asleep.
I bounded up from the payment in a leap. I was flying looking down at London. I intended to meet up with other dreamers, I could feel then see Fabrice, he was at a console doing something, looking at a screen.

The voice said “You are a virus, the ultimate virus, an artist of change. You are becoming, accept and allow this power. You are the dreamer of your reality. Nothing that you see has not been created by you.
You are dreaming by default now, you are a fledgling. Intend your reality. Choose what you perceive. Accept, act and flow, in your power.
You humans though are a strange mixture of the finite and infinite, the personal and impersonal, the concrete and the abstract, you would say inorganic and organic.

We are dreamers of our own reality. There is nothing that we experience that is not created by us. We are expansive, we are unimaginable. When we take responsibility for our creation then, we become able to command it.
Command the energies you perceive around you. Command fear; tell it, ‘’I was not created for you, but you for me. You are my servant. Be alert and available, warn me when it is appropriate, otherwise just be ready.’’

Any powers that you recognise command them similarly. What human-kind call gods and demons are there for your command. You have the power to dream new worlds, exercise and exploit this power and truly enjoy it.
This is your time, celebrate it moment by moment, this is how the moments roll on as your dream, they gather momentum and volition. Intend your dream.
You are dreamers in the now, your experience of silence and exultation is a seed. Let go of all personal concern. Do not care for results, act because you are inspired and your doing is as nothing.

Go beyond all descriptions. Cast out all conceptions and dream. Reside in your heart, a place of rest and passion. Silence and acceptance embrace you. Allow the opening.
See the play of colours on the screen of your imagination, this is your play. Everything is fluid and malleable. If you find resistance, withdraw and find another way. There is a way to all things and you will be shown everything you need, to facilitate you.
Do not worry, obsess or judge yourselves. Relax - the joy you feel is the joy of every cell as it awakens to discovery. Go deep inside find your intents and flourish.’’